open arms

I couldnt take it any more
so i flew right through through the door
i ran away cause of all the pain but
out in the world it was all the same but now i have no security
and know i have no one to hold me
so i turned around and walked away from this big world weve made today
i ran back home to have a place and then i saw tears on your face
... I came home to open arms
took me in and protected me from harm
if i could change a anything i do
i would change everything but you

what i thought about

All the walks i have ever gone on alone. Rushing through the trees trying to escape the reality of life. I would close my eyes and try and picture a happier place where the world wasnt spinning out of control crashing down on me with the weight of a thousand tears. But somewhere one of those days when i was hiding from the eyes of every one that was looking into my scar filled eyes i realized that i was running from happiness and the only way to find my way back was to go back through every thing that had happened and find a way to just let go...Let go it is the only way you can ever truly be free...and happy....

a kiss

A kiss found in the midst of grief, planted by her so soft on your check
in the midst of a loss you find, that you havent truly been left behind
she tells you that she loves you, you dont know what to do
so you close your eyes and fall right in, you open up your heart and clear a space within
she holds you till the morning , even with eyes burning
tells you it will be ok. says shell be there every day
and in your heart you find, that all along she was right

throughout everything

Im so far from the truth
that ive lost the will to breathe
the only reason im alive
is your watchin over me
ive been loosing all control
and im hopeless yet again
father can you hear me?
can you be here once again?
And Father if i die
will i have a place to go
or am i damned forever
never to have a home
If i stumble into darkness
and cannot find my way
can i get down on my knees
and will you hear me pray?

Cause throught everything, ive never Quite prepared
im loosing all control and now im running scared
so father if you can hear me , im trapped inside my sin
please will you come save me , and make me whole again.

Ive finaly learned my lesson
and i know its nothing new
the sky is crashing down
so ill put my strength in you
i cant do this on my own
but you knew that from thhe start
i tried to find the anwser
but it was hidden in my heart
so ill throw off all these shackles
as the world comes crashing down
ill look inside my heart
where true love can be found
and never will i question
a fathers love again
cause your the only one
who can save me from my sin

Cause throught everything ive never quite porepared
but i know its not about me and im done with running scared
father i know that you can hear me and can see me in my sin
but with my savior in my heart ill never be alone again

heart break

A broken heart can
not feel any pain
cause every cut will
always bleed the same
i know it doesnt mean
anything to you
but its your fault that
i do what i do
you take the words that
i have spoken
and throw them off like
the heart youve broken
so take this finger
that i hold in the air
you broke me once
now see if i care

you fooled me once- because i let you
now im in control- what you gonna do
i learned to move on- pretty quickly
i guess i stayed around - so you could miss me

You call it heart break because i crushed you
and now that ive one you dont know what to do
Everytime you cry your tears
like the ones i shed for you
just remember one last thing
and do like i do

you say youre sorry
but it wont work this time
weve been there once before
and i remeber every line
if i ever said
that i loved you
please dont worry
i promise it was true
i thought you were always there
but i know i was wrong
and now you want me back
too late cause im gone

you fooled me once- because i let you
now im in control- what you gonna do
i learned to move on- pretty quickly
i guess i stayed around - so you could miss me

You call it heart break because i crushed you
and now that ive one you dont know what to do
Everytime you cry your tears
like the ones i shed for you
just remember one last thing
and do like i do

Theres never been a time that
i ever lied to you
so i wont start now
ill be completly true
you think your loosing me
but i was never yours
so say your goodbyes
cause now im out the door

you call it heart break...
you call it heart break...
you call it heart break...

Because i Loved you

sickening feeling

A smile ..
a Hug...
A glance...
A heart..
A hope..
A chance...
a kiss..
a dream...
a touch...
a like ...
a flirt..
a crush..
a secret...
a trust ...
a lie...
a heart
now broken
inside
hidding now
within regret
feeling so low
feeling so sick
unsure now if it was ever real
forgetting for good how to feel
a new pain..
a new hurt...
an old regret...
a new cance...
to open up...
that will never come again...
tired of all the painfull memories
i found someone to love who completed me
she turned away and ran so fast
just to forget me as her past
dont tell me you love me and
youll be there till the end
if after it all you cant even be a friend
this sickening feeling deep inside
where my heart will never be alive

Versilian Refuge

In the silence of the solitude i close my eyes and weap
for never was i good enough by only being me
i tried to hold you closer than anyones ever been
but you lied to me and pushed me down and i still got up again
so ask me why i do this but silence you will hear
cause that same damned question is always ringing in my ear
i try to be what you would see as a loving caring man
but every time when time arrives im burried in the sand
so hold close to me and let me see that you are being true
cause i am done with all this sadness that we are going through.
i want you for you and me for me but is that to much to ask\
you always seem to have an exscuse that makes me feel so bad
but yet i still hold tightly trying so hard not to scream
cause in exasperation it will be the end of me...