explain?

there are things i cant explain to you no matter how hard i try
everytime i try to speak my words ignite and die
i try to excell in philosophy but that just isnt me
i try to be perfect, but thats always been a dream
but i cant be who you think they are not a single one
the only person i can be is just my fathers son
when i see you smile it is the greatest moment of my life
when i hear you talk to me i want you as my wife